BRRRRRR! November 8, 2008

Well, it truly feels like winter now.  As luck has it, both furnaces are out of commission.  We’ve have several electric heaters running at full blast, but it is not enough to keep it toasty.  The HVAC guy will be here on Sunday to take care of a job he started this summer.

Today, the girls and I will head to the Y to get in a good work out.  Bella will play in childcare and then Mom will splash around with her in the pool.  We are learning how to swim without a life jacket.  She is doing really well.  I need to get her into swim lessons soon.

Tonight I will hang out with my sister and brother-in-law in their new home.  They are throwing a house warming party.  Pretty brave, since they just moved in.  I love their new home.  It is fits them perfectly.  I’m excited to see the new paint and all of their furnishings in their home.  Dad is going to hang out with Isabella a little tonight while I attend.  I love it when they hang out!

I’m still in the process of finding a new job.  I should find out on Monday or Tuesday where the Hardware Sales job is going.  I really think it is perfect, I just hope they offer me what I have to have to live on my own. 

Everything will work out.  My faith in God has really helped me to keep a positive out look on a negative situation.  Thank you God

Just another side effect September 23, 2008

Today was just another day in paradise.  Well, until I found out that my 6 yr old step-daughter knew that her Dad and I were not going to be married anymore.  I didn’t know that she knew until her Mother asked how was doing.  I totally lost it.  I’ve known her since she was 1.  I treat her as if she was another daughter.  I had asked my husband if we could tell her together, but he is a very selfish man.  Divorce is HELL.  My advice to anyone reading this blog,  try to avoid it at all cost.  There are way too many side effects!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

One more day September 22, 2008

Today I got to spend one more day with my youngest daughter. We hung around the house until noon. We were off to grab Subway and hang at our favorite park- The Cave Park as it is know for in our house.  Sequiota to others.  We had a picnic, fed the ducks more wheat gluten then their poor little systems could handle, and swang on the big swings.  Bella went “Big High”  as she calls it. 

We were then off to watch my eldest daughter cheer for the Freshman Nixa Eagles.  She did so well.  I’m so proud of her. Mom2 was there to show her support-Thanks Mom2.

I’m Back? September 22, 2008

Where have I been?  Life has been a little______________.  I’m not even sure what word to place in that blank-disappointing, eye opening, sad, unstable, scary.  My husband and I have agreed to go our separate ways.  Not something that I’m really proud to discuss.  Unfortunately, it is a very big part of my life at this moment.  My living and work situation are very difficult.  I am still living and working with my husband.  I’m trying to save enough money to move out.  That might take a good 3-4 months.  Eek!  I hate divorce!  It is such an nasty process, especially for the children.  I pray to God that this goes smoothly.  I’m very blessed to a wonderful support staff!!  My family and friends have been so wonderful.  I have to give a big shout out to my Mom2.  God has really placed a wonderful person in my life.  Mom2 is so supportive and at times, down right hilarious.  Thanks MOM!  (I’m sure my Mom is very happy with Dad’s choice!)  I really can’t stress how much help my family has been lately!  Thanks to all!

The weekend was a little odd, but fun! 

My good friend Kelly invited down to the lake for the evening.  We dined on olives, cheese, crackers, and turkey.  We enjoyed are latest beer fave-Bud Light Lime.  We watched Made of Honor for our evening girlie flick-cute movie.  The next morning we woke up to the most beautiful view of the lake.  We sat on the deck and enjoyed coffee and conversation.  The morning was topped off with a 6ml hike around the area.  Perfect morning.  This was a much needed girlfriend retreat.  There’s nothing more therapeutic then good conversation and beautiful scenery.

I drove home to relieve my husband of Bella duty.  He was off to do his thing the rest of the weekend.  Bella and I packed a swim bag and headed out to Papa and Grand Anne’s for a last swim day of the season.  Bella enjoyed the slide and and diving board in the very cold water.  Mom was a wimp-too cold for me!

My little fish!

We decided to have a little cookout.  While dinner was cooking Papa started a small bonfire.  It was so nice to sit with my Dad on the swing and just hang out.  (I wonder if he knows how important he is too me?)  Its the little things in life that can mean so much.  We enjoyed dinner outside on the deck and then Bella informed us that she was tired and wanted to go home.  I dreaded go home.  It was empty and not my home any more.  I can’t wait to get my own place.

Speaking of getting my own place-moving.  It seems like all my siblings are moving.  Stacey and Len finally have a new residence,  Steve and Tammy are on there way to their dream home, Mike and Annie have made their move, and Blair & Ralph are looking.  My poor address book is going to have alot of eraser residue.  I hope everybody gets their Christmas cards ok.

My Mom2, wait let me explain the “2″ after Mom.  I use this word out of respect for my deceased Mother.  My Mom was there for me in the first phase of my life 0-32.  She taught me so much and gave every ounce of herself to her family.  Here’s to you Mom!!  I love you and miss you very much!  My Mom2 is been there for me every since she met and married my Dad.  I find it very difficult to call her my Stepmother.  That word has such negative connotations.  So here’s to my Mom2!!

So let me start again.  My Mom2 has completed her list of 101 things to do in 1001 days.  What a great way to accomplish your goals.  I thought I would get started on my list.  I think this would be helpful to get life jump started.  I seem to be in a bad funk.  No motivation!  Hmm I wonder why?

Well, I’m off to enjoyed my free time with Bella.  I don’t have too many of these days left.

Happy Father’s Day Dad July 18, 2008

Yesterday my Dad and I celebrated Father’s Day. (He was out of town on Father’s Day) We got in 9 holes of golf, ate lunch at Thai House, and cruised the isles of Freight Harbor and Walmart’s clearance isle.  It is funny how much we are alike.  I’m so blessed to have such a wonderful Father. It was so nice to sit and talk.  I felt like I was maybe talking too much,  but it is very rare that we have any one on one time.  I had so much to say.  Note to self: Have Father’s Day every month!

I met up with my husband and we transferred the girls to my car and we went to DQ for ice cream.  Then we were off to Dad’s to go swimming.  My two year old decided to go down the slide – eek Mom was so nervous.  She loved it, and then she got gutsy and went down backwards- Thats my baby?

Yeah, its finally Friday.  The day I look forward to every Sunday.  It is so hard to concentrate on my job tasks because I have my weekend task already jumping through my thoughts.  We will head for the Lake of the Ozarks this evening.  My daughter (14) will be bringing a friend to help entertain her.  We don’t have my step-daughter so it will be our 2 year old and us.  We purchase another SeaDoo, 3-seater.  So Im looking forward to teaching my daughter (14 yr old) to water ski.  Note:  My parents taught me so many different varieties of sporting activities.   I really found it to be very beneficial growing up.   I’m really slacking in that area.  I better get to work!!  Thanks Mom & Dad for teaching me so many things!!

I’m off to do the ritual “packing of the car” for the lake.  I’m really looking forward to this weekend!  Ta Ta for now!

Thank you God for this day! July 16, 2008

As I look out the door of my bedroom, I am once again astounded by Gods work.  So insteaded of writing I’m going to put on my running shoes and enjoy his gift. 

Well, as usual things didn’t go the way I thought they would.  Instead of putting on my running shoes I accidently made the mistake of walking into the kitchen.  I saw that the flowers needed to be watered, my step daughters lunch needed to made, towels needed to go into the dryer (I put them in the washer at 4 a.m.), I wanted to put some tea out to brew in the sun, I had picked up a new mint plant at the farmers market that needed to be planted.  By the time all this was done it was time for me to start our family morning routine:  Try to arouse our 2 youngest 2 & 6, feed them cloth them and prepare them for their day.  Oh, and our cleaning fairy – Carol is coming to clean today.  You know what that means, time to clean before she cleans.  What a great feeling it is to walk into a clean home once every two weeks-Bless you Carol!  Well, I’m off to start the day!  (I work 9-4:30 at my husband’s Chiropractic office)  Time to put on a different pair of shoes- sandals

Work is a little uneasy today, we have to let the new girl go.  She just didn’t fit the mold.  It has been very uncomfortable because I know my husband is letting her go tonight.  So, as usual, I’m search for the employee that fits the mold-Again!   It is so hard to find anyone that has any enthusasim about working. 

I went to my personal trainer today.  Running shoes!   Boy, does he make me run among other fun activities:  100 Lunges, 100 Push-ups, 50 Pull-ups, ETC…  I wish I had more time to get in better shape.  It is so hard on me when I only work out once a week.  I made a pack to run/walk 10 miles a week.  I’ve only done 2.5 so far.  Maybe I can get a run in tonight.

I got to talk to my son today.  Background:  He has been living outside our home for 7 months.  Blended our two families have been really tough.  His Father has petitioned the courts for full custody.  What a strain this is on my marriage & my relationship with my son.